I almost went back to firefox, as I imagine a lot of people did. I was scouring the web for solutions to the fact that Chrome was slow as it could get… Finally somebody mentioned something I didn’t understand about proxy settings, so I went into my System/Network/Proxies in the advanced section, on my Mac… and I unchecked the only thing that was checked, something about using FTP something… and lo and behold, it worked!! So now I can keep using Chrome, which is the coolest browser so far, except firefox has a couple real useful plugins, but i can always go back and use firefox if i ever need to debug a web page for example… I”m a happy camper…

The first time I felt impotent rage was when my childhood doctor sat on my head to give me a shot, while i screamed and couldn’t move. This total inability to do anything remotely resembling what you want, makes for the impotence plus rage combination. The second time I have felt it is NOW. Having zero money, and the inability to get anything, makes for the same head sitting on feeling. I guess, most other times in my life I have felt like I had some modicum of control. But I know this feeling. And I never forget it after it’s over. Will this ever be over?

I just thought of how I could use Matt’s random picture rotator script thingy to make the pictures on my galleries page rotate… I will work on that in a bit. but maybe i shouldn’t do that, because it would show all the pics in my upload area, not just the pics in each gallery, but in both galleries, might be confusing… aah well, perhaps i will just let my sleeping dog lay.

why do i keep trying? to make a photoblog, gallery type deal?  I finally found a plugin that works great, except the comments, not so much  I keep looking longingly at matt’s site (the guy who invented wordpress) and his blog is soooo fine, and i don’t see why they don’t spread that kind of loove on down the ranks.  Instead of leaving us peons with glitchy, clunky, torturous themes.. it’s a sad state of affairs, i’ll tell ya.

From: An†hony ( A loving HEART echoes into eternity…)
Date: Jul 24, 2008 9:53 PM

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Clasping the tail of winged hope,
Though foolish, desperate and sad,
I stayed above the battlefield
With what little strength I had.

I could not risk another wound.
The few I bore were deep.
Hope flew me to higher ground
Where silence I would keep.

For a time, I remained there,
But soon I learned, alas’
Hope can save you from your fears,
but false hope doesn’t last.

I was doing well on the journey down.
My hope I turned to trust.
By the time I reached the ground again
My fears had turned to dust.

But I was not complete’not yet.
I remained a broken soul.
The many things that I had lost
Had burned a deep, dark hole.

For once you understand true love
You’ll never be the same.
Once you’ve had and lost true love
You’re empty, shaken, tame.

But even then, the future’s clear.
I chose the way of life.
I went to God and offered him
My pain, my grief, my strife.

Never have I been happier,
Or more free from earthly woe.
No, life still isn’t perfect;
I, of all people, would know.

Easy now it is to stay
On solid, steady ground.
I wave goodbye to that false hope
To which I’ll ne’er again be bound !

” Hope is not a granted wish or a favor performed… It is a zany, unpredictable dependence on a God who loves to surprise us out of our socks.

” (Max Lucado)

” We may run, walk, stumble, drive, or fly, but let us never lose sight of the reason for the journey, or miss a chance to see a rainbow on the way.

“

” God spoke through my heart and in the midst of my pain and fears; He whispered ” All you need to know my child is that I’m here.

“

” Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.

” ( Romans 12:12 NIV)

” May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

” ( Romans 15:13
NIV )

” Courage is like love, it must have hope for nourishment.

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” A pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity; an optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty.

“

” Faith is the very first thing you should pack in a hope chest.

“

” You don’t know that God is all you need until God is all you got.

“

” Some see a hopeless end, while others see an endless hope.

“

“…But those who wait for the Lord [who expect, look for, and hope in Him] shall change and renew their strength and power; they shall lift their wings and mount up [close to God] as eagles [mount up to the sun]; they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint or become tired…” ( Isaiah 40: 31 )

” GOD’S WINGS “
(Something to think about…)

A little something to put things in perspective…

An article in National Geographic several years ago provided an interesting picture of God’s wings.

After a forest fire in Yellowstone National Park, forest rangers began their trek up a mountain to assess the inferno’s damage. One ranger found a bird literally petrified in ashes, perched statuesquely on the ground at the base of a tree. Somewhat sickened by the eerie sight, he knocked over the bird with a stick.

When he gently struck it, three tiny chicks scurried from under their dead mother’s wings. The loving mother, keenly aware of impending disaster, had carried her offspring to the base of the tree and had gathered them under her wings, instinctively knowing that the toxic smoke would rise.

She could have flown to safety but had refused to abandon her babies. Then the blaze had arrived and the heat had scorched her small body, the mother had remained steadfast. Because she had been willing to die those under the cover of her wings would live.

” He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge.” (Psalm 91:4)

” PRESSING ON “
(A Bible study…)

Read: Philippians 3: 10-21

So often things of the past can hold us back. Often the issues that haven’t been dealt with can be a stumbling block and a hindrance to what God can do in us now. If only we can see beyond the here and now. If only we could see what God can do in and through us, we would desire to press on through.

As Paul says here, he hasn’t already attained this, but he presses on – forgetting what lies behind and strains forward to what lies ahead. We need to have a more ‘eternal’ way of thinking. We know that this world is not our home. We can’t even take our human body with us when we die. Everything will be changed. Everything will be new. Our homeland is in heaven with Jesus. Our home here on earth is only a temporary residence. If we could truly grasp this – we would realize the unimportance of so much in our day-to-day life. This can be a hard concept – because none of us can really understand what heaven would be like. None of us have been there. We haven’t seen it; touched it; smelt it; experienced it in any way. We may get small glimpses now and then – but that is nothing in comparison to what it would be like. I believe if we could just see what has eternal value in what we do and say, it can be transforming. Knowing this can help us to ‘press on’ with God. To ‘press on’ to receive the breakthrough we so desire. To ‘press on’ to be more Christ-like. To ‘press on’ despite the odds stacked up against us. For nothing else the world has to offer is as important as pressing on in God.

” Do not [earnestly] remember the former things; neither consider the things of old. Behold, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs forth; do you not perceive and know it and will you not give heed to it? I will even make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.

” (Isaiah 43: 18-19)

” I sought the LORD, and He heard me, and delivered me from all my fears ” (Psalms 34:4).

” Casting the whole of your care [all your anxieties, all your worries, all your concerns, once and for all] on Him, for He cares for you affectionately and cares about you watchfully.

(—1 Peter 5:7 )

Help me Lord to press on through
No matter how hard it gets
Let me see what has ‘eternal value’
And press on to what lies ahead !

My life was like the ocean’s tides
Highs & lows were by my side
Temptations current swept me out
I was beyond His reach, drowned with doubt.

My spirit sank without a sound
No ripple of faith was left around
A whirlpool of sorrow engulfed my soul
The waves of despair made me cold.

Without hope of rescue, there came a light
So pure & loving beyond my sight
Christ had released the ocean’s grip
Sending my anchor of sins adrift.

His beacon of hope was always there
His unwavering love for me was everywhere
I was saved from this world’s angry sea
The Lord dove in and set my heart free…

” But as for me, I will always have hope; I will praise you more and more.” (Psalm 71:14 NIV)

” For the Lord is good. His unfailing love continues forever , and his faithfulness continues to each generation.” (Psalm 100:5 NLT)

” The Lord is gracious and merciful; slow to anger and great in his lovingkindness. The Lord is good to all, and his mercies are over all his works.” (Psalm 145:8-9 NASB)

” For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” (Romans 8:38-39 KJV)

” Be strong and courageous! Do not tremble or be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” (Joshua 1:9 NASB)

” BURDENS GIVE US WINGS “

An old legend relates that long ago God had a great many burdens which He wished to have carried from one place to another on earth, so He asked the animals to lend a hand. But all of them began to make excuses for not helping: the elephant was too dignified; the lion, too proud; and so on. Finally the birds came to God and said, “If you will tie the burdens into small bundles, we’ll be glad to carry them for you. We are small but we would like to help.

”

So God fastened upon the back of each one a small bundle, and they all set out walking across the plain to their destination. They sang as they went, and did not seem to feel the weight of their burdens at all. Every day the burdens seemed lighter and lighter, until the loads seems to be lifting the birds, instead of the birds carrying the burdens.

When they arrived at their destination, they discovered that when they removed their loads, there were wings in their place, wings which enabled them to fly to the sky and the tree tops.

They had learned how to carry their burdens, and their loads had become wings to carry them nearer to God. Burdens we carry for others may become wings of the spirit, to lift us into happiness such as we have never known.

” I KNOW THE PLANS I HAVE FOR YOU “
(A Devotional…)

Today God is saying to you, ” While in process, stick to the plan ! ” Nothing takes God by surprise. He’s a master planner. Joseph discovered that when your family turns against you, your friends let you down and you finish up in trouble, God still has a plan. Looking back Joseph could say, ” You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good ” ( Ge 50:20 NIV).

When your situation seems too hard to handle and downright impossible to explain, remind yourself that God said, ” I know the plans I have for you”

Some of us are not sure God has made up His mind about us, so we keep trying to earn His favor. Give it up ! Receive the truth that God, for Christ’s sake, has decided to bless you. And when God decides, temporary situations or the actions of others don’t change His decision. There’s nothing the enemy devises against you that God hasn’t already made ” a way of escape” for.

Paul writes, ” God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that you are able; but will with the temptation also make a way of escape, that ye may be able to bear it” ( 1 Co 10:13)

Observe:

(1) In times of testing you discover how faithful God is.

(2) He knows what you can handle.

(3) He will ” make a way ” so you can exist this season stronger, and ready for what He has next. So stick to the plan. The fact that you have a problem is a sign that you have a promise. It’s only a matter of time before God reveals the solution…

” Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul.

” ( Psalm 143:8 NIV)

” A MORSEL OF HOPE “
(A touching story…)

Jean Kerr said, “Hope is the feeling you have, that the feeling you have, isn’t permanent.” It is what we have when we know that we WILL eventually survive the night and bask in sunshine once again. It does not deny the present darkness, but it reminds us that dawn is coming.

Brigadier General Robinson Risner (“Robbie”) spent seven years as a POW at the “Hanoi Hilton,” as prisoners of war called their North Viet Nam compound. There he discovered the power of hope. He spent four and a half years of that time in isolation. He endured ten months of total darkness. Those months were the longest of his life. When they boarded up his little seven-by-seven foot cell, shutting out the light, he wondered if he was going to make it. He had already been under intense physical and mental duress after years of confinement. And now, not a glimmer of light shone into his cell — or into his soul.

Robbie spent hours a day exercising and praying. But at times he felt he could nothing but scream. Not wanting to give his captors the satisfaction of knowing they’d broken him, he stuffed clothing into his mouth to muffle the noise as he screamed at the top of his lungs.

One day Robbie got down on the floor and crawled under his bunk. He located a vent that let in outside air. As he pressed against the vent, he saw a faint glimmer of light reflected on the inside wall of the opening. Robbie put his eye next to the cement wall and discovered a minute crack in the construction. It allowed him to glimpse outside, but was so small that all he could see was one blade of grass. A single blade of grass and a faint ray of light. But when he stared at the sight, he felt a surge of joy, excitement and gratitude like he hadn’t known in years. “It represented life, growth, and freedom,” he later said, “and I knew God had not forgotten me.” It was that tiny glimmer of hope that sustained Robbie through an unbearable ordeal.

I am amazed at the strength of the human spirit. It seems to run forever on nothing but a morsel of hope. But it still must be fed.

I find myself busy keeping my body going – but I know it is just as important to feed my spirit. Even if all I have is a morsel of hope, for today that just may be enough.

“ When you face the fact that something can be so devastating and scary and unknown… it gives you a perspective of prioritizing your own world. It gives you a positive outlook.

”

Trials are common occurrences, and God’s children are not exempt. Psalms 34:19 tells us, “Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivers him out of them all.

”

There are many times when I cannot change my circumstances, but I have learned two things: “God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble” (Psalms 46:1), and I do have a choice about how I respond.

” YOU SAY “
(Some things to ponder about…)

You say: “It’s impossible.” God says: All things are possible.

(Luke 8:27)

You say: “I’m too tired.” God says: I will give you rest.

(Matthew 1:28-30)

You say: “Nobody really loves me.” God says: I love you.

(John 3:16 & John 13:34)

You say: “I can’t go on.” God says: My grace is sufficient.

(II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalms 91:15)

You say: “I can’t figure things out.” God says: I will direct your steps.

(Proverbs 3:5-6)

You say: “I can’t do it.” God says: You can do all things.

(Philippians 4:13)

You say: “I’m not able.” God says: I am able.

(II Corinthians 9:8)

You say: “I’m not worth it. God says: It will be worth it.

(Romans 8:28)

You say: “I can’t forgive myself.” God says: I FORGIVE YOU.

(I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)

You say: “I can’t manage.” God says: I will supply all your needs.

(Philippians 4:19)

You say: “I’m afraid.” God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear.

(II Timothy 1:7)

You say: “I’m always worried and frustrated.” God says: Cast all your cares on ME.

(I Peter 5:7)

You say: “I don’t have enough faith.

” God says: I’ve given everyone a measure of faith (Romans 12:3)

You say: “I’m not smart enough.” God says: I give you wisdom.

(I Corinthians 1:30)

You say: “I feel all alone.” God says: I will never leave you or forsake you.

(Hebrews 13:5)

” GOD MADE ALL THINGS “
(A poem…)

God made the heaven and the earth
He had to make everything first
Then he created night and day
To keep us from going astray.

He made the sun, the moon and the stars
I wonder did he make mars
He made the rivers, ocean, seas and lakes
God doesn’t make any mistakes.

He made every creature of every kind
He knew what was on his mind
He gathered everything together in one place
He did it all with such grace.

Then he decided to make us
From the ground he picked up dust
He created man and called him Adam
After Adam he made madam.

Adam called the woman Eve
Because from his ribs is where she was received
He saw that everything he made was good
He created things the way he should…

Be Blessed & take care !

Peace and LOVE always,

Anthony ( Romans 12:12)

From the time when I accepted Jesus Christ in my life, which was a few years ago, I surrendered my life totally to Him and Him alone. He is the captain of my ship for I know that He will lead me wherever I may go, through the many storms of life and I will never be in need or in fear if I am with Him. In Psalm 32:8 the Lord said “I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you.” “For I know the plans I have for you” declares the Lord “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future”. For as long as I live I will offer my strength, my life to Him.

God bless us always !

Life has times of hardship, struggles, trials, temptations, despair, loneliness and heartbreak. We all go through times like these from time to time. There is a saying that goes ‘Life is a bed of Roses’ implying it’s easy and sweet. There’s probably a lot of truth in that – considering the ‘thorns’, but it’s far from easy and sweet. A prick can be painful! God can use what we go through to rely on Him more and build our character to be Christ-like.

So yes, I guess life can be like a bed of roses – but we need to be mindful of the thorns.

There are tests in life I know
The thorns are there, but so is the rose !

We read in God’s word that we live by faith, not by sight. We read here that faith is “perceiving as real fact what is not revealed to the senses”. We ‘believe’ though we do not yet see the tangible evidence. In some situations faith may come more easily. Other times it may not. Sometimes the circumstances overwhelm us – like it did when Peter walked on water. There have been times in my life where I have had a certainty within – a ‘knowing’, and this has brought a sense of peace. Then other times it seems beyond my scope of faith.

I believe our faith is stretched and as a result grows toward maturity. It’s hard at times, but we need to trust in our Lord to bring us through whatever situation.

Faith is the assurance and belief
In things we hope for, yet do not see !

“…But those who wait for the Lord [who expect, look for, and hope in Him] shall change and renew their strength and power; they shall lift their wings and mount up [close to God] as eagles [mount up to the sun]; they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint or become tired…” ( Isaiah 40: 31 )

” God’s love for us is not a love that always exempts us from trials, but rather, a love that always sees us through trials.

“

” You may go days without thinking of God, but there’s never a moment when He’s not thinking of you.

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” May your unfailing love rest upon us, O Lord, even as we put our hope in you.

” ( Psalm 33:22 NIV)

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Thirteen Reasons my husband should buy me a chinese pug…

1. Because I really really want one

2. Because Coco needs a friend, she’s getting weird

3. Because I think you can litter box train pugs

4. Because I need a friend, I’m getting weird

5. Let’s face it, Coco is really daddy’s dog

6. Pugs have an aversion to heat

7. So do I!!!

8. Pugs make you laugh, so they are good for your health

9. I’ll get to spend 3 months thinking up the perfect name, i love that

10. I’ll finally have a dog that matches my body image

11. Pugs are good with kids, not that i have any, but i have a niece

12. Because my husband doesn’t WANT to buy me a pug

13. Because pugs are soooooooooooo cute!!!! come ‘ere! pretty girl! aaww who’s a pretty girl?? you are! you are! *sigh*

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The look on Coco’s face is priceless, as she’s overtaken by the big squeeze. Ghandi’s passive resistance in action if I’ve ever seen it

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coco in the grass, originally uploaded by Elaine !.

I was trying to get my dog to behave and pose in front of the camera… it doesn’t help that she cringes when she sees the camera come out, because i’m always telling her to sit and stay and no! That’s why she’s got that I’m not talking to you look on her face.

I’m smoking these oriental ciggies that hubby got from a friend. They come in a multicolored pastel pack, that opens like a compact… it has gold foil over the cigs, and the cigs themselves are all different colors, fuschia, pale pink, green, blue, teal, and purple… and they have gold shiny filters. I don’t know why they don’t use them in movies, you know, the french guy from the matrix 3 or whatever could have smoked them. I think they are very cool, but i don’t go anywhere to be seen smoking them lol.. aaah well, REAL cool isn’t in what other people think.

I used to be a punk rocker but I guess my heart wasn’t in it, because there’s this friend of mine from ‘back then’.. whom I have on my myspace page, and he’s pushing 50 and he’s STILL a punk rocker. He writes tons of punk rock books even. I get updates from his page that all the bands I used to go see are STILL TOGETHER. I mean what’s up with that? aren’t we all supposed to ‘move on’.. learn.. grow.. stop moshing? some one I knew back then got her uterus knocked out of place from moshing.. how do you do that when you’re FIFTY? well all i gotta say is ‘there’s no punk like an old punk’… *shakes head*

Thirteen Reasons to NEVER start a photoblog…

1. You will start with something like typepad, or some other given site that offers their services, and then you will become disatisfied with how they control you..

2. Then you will buy movable type

3. Then you will realize you have no idea how to make a photoblog out of movable type..

4. Then you will pay blog moxie hundreds of dollars to make you blog templates along with the photoblog because they have a special on

5. Then your site will get hacked, and blog moxie offers to help you for THREE HUNDRED DOLLARS AN HOUR..

6. So you set out to look for FREE blogging software that has photoblog templates

7. you don’t find any

8. So you try gallery software…

9. many, many, many galleries you try

10. you upload ALL your photos so many times you run out of space on your server

11. you have to change webhosts

12. you finally find simple viewer, but want it IN YOUR BLOG, your nice free blog

13. you have a nervous breakdown installing wordpress plugins, and none of them work… you hear God laughing and you find some kid that has one line of code to add your simple viewer to your blog…. BUT… by this point.. it wasn’t worth it

Visit my damn photogallery here or just as an update, wordpress now has a gallery feature, and you can click on my galleries at the top of this page

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update.. a friend in the comments introduced to pixelpost and my photoblog is here

3 of my beautiful websites are dead now… invisiblebeautiful.com all dead, badpuppydog.com, all dead, trashstock.net, all dead… I am crying. thank the hackers, anyone who liked those sites, thank the hackers….