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Mother’s day

happy mother’s day to all you mothers. I’m sad about not being able to phone my mother today. I feel like phoning hubby’s mother or something. I phoned my dad, but there was no answer. My mother’s voice was still on the answering machine. Guess my dad doesn’t have the heart to change it. My [...]

It went well

Well I just got back from the group interview, and I think it went really well.. I mean it went really well for ME.. I’m not sure if THEY were duely impressed lol There was a girl there in her third year of english lit.. so i daresay I might not get the job, haha.. [...]

group session

I had forgotten I had lost my temper in the last entry lol.. we’ll just delete that aye? I’m in a snit tonight coz I have a job interview tomorrow. not a me interview, but a group interview.. I’m real scared. I’m not the most positive person about my abilities, I don’t know if you [...]

to kill a mockingbird

I’m reading ‘to kill a mockingbird’, it’s got such sweet writing; you know, from the girl’s perspective. So straightforward as if it’s from a child, but yet not coz the writing is still savvy. We are about to watch ‘kung fu hustle’.. should be silly.

Well…

oh man, the book is kinda stressing me out a bit lol ‘the purpose filled life’.. It’s a tad relentless. It makes me feel like I’m not that great of a Christian and stuff. Jesus said ‘My yoke is easy and My burden is light’.. but sheesh.. yesterday’s chapter was good, it was about being [...]

Tom.. as in Waits

hey I’m tryna make a TOM WAITS mp3 disk for da new car jammin’ while i cruize dealy.. there’s nobody like tom waits. I found my ‘mule variations’ cd today, and had a nice afternoon listening to tom. I wonder if he is a Christian, coz he talks about God and Jesus alot in his [...]

In His Hands

I’m really enjoying the book ‘the purpose driven life’.. Sometimes it stresses me out, coz I think ‘how can I worship all day, and praise all day, and obey all day??’ and it makes me realize all the things I SHOULD be doing as a Christian that I’m not and it makes it all feel [...]

Long Day, But Good

I was out all day today, and most of the evening. My sister in law and I went out to the mall and then out for lunch and then to pick up my wee niece and then to the grocery store. And since it was ME shopping at the grocery store and not my hubby, [...]

Purpose

hey butterflies, hubby mentioned that we should move back to our home town, hehe. Coz I’m so lonely out here. But that wouldn’t be for years, like 3 years, when he’s finished his schooling. Plus I don’t know if we would EVER go back to 40 below winters. It was sooo cold there, and the [...]

Let me talk your ear off

I’m watching movies and I am getting all inspired by them. I think I’m just romanticizing cinema coz we are about to get rid of our cable. The movies all look like little pieces of art to me. Well no they look like BIG art; every scene, every line looks like little art. I’m sorta [...]

sitting here like a slug

Well, it’s new project time, and I’m stress surfin’.. but God is with me and things are turning out for the best. I have alot to design and alot to learn, so I best get on that aye? I had a change of plans for the better today, so I’m in a good mood, and [...]

We got it!

Well we got our new car! We had an appt. to pick it up at 2:00 at the dealership, and I think we didn’t get out of there until like 5:00! I was getting real impatient by the end lol.. but we finally drove away in it. It’s soooo suhweet! We went booting all over [...]

New Car!

Well we just got back from the dealership and we got approved!! and they are going to ship in the car we want from another dealership, hopefully it will only take a day or two. We couldn’t get it in black, but we got it in blue. convenience package with air and mp3 player. We [...]

neice’s bday

Considering the fact that I’m trolling the net for new cars and stuff, I’m incredibly bored. I think it’s mostly because at the front foremost part of my brain is how much financial trouble we are in and all I can think about is how humiliating it will be to get turned down for financing [...]

screwed

Well, personally I think we are screwed. I talked to the bank and they said noooooo, no car loan. So we are going out in a few to get turned down at a car lot. lol you can see how optimistic I am, can’t you? So it looks like we will be getting a crap [...]

Car

I always have such a restless feeling during the day. Well at night too. I search for things to do and end up wanting cigarettes. I wish I had more constructive things to do with my life. Maybe I should try and do yoga twice a day. That’s an idea. I just did dishes. It’s [...]

Maintain

Hubby asked me today if I intended to stay this weight for the rest of my life. And the question struck me and I thought about it and actually realized that I was quite hopeful that I would, and answered that yes I did intend to stay this weight. So I was happy that he [...]

Coffee is bad mkay

20 minutes to salad. It’s the little things I look forward to. hehe. Hubby is taking off to go see his sister today. I can’t go coz we only have a two seater. I can hardly wait until we get a new car. I have my heart set on getting a bug. But that’s a [...]

Sushi

We didn’t go out to a greek restaurant, which would have been a happy thing to do. We went out for sushi. Not the california roll kind you get at the mall, but the real kind! So I ate tons of disgusting raw fish! I only crunched at the raw eel tho, and raw squid [...]

Visitors

My hubby’s sister is here with her boyfriend for a wee visit. fun fun huh? I do love the company. They just went out for a walk coz it’s so nice outside, so I’m taking the opportunity to post. We went out for lunch today and I had a caesar salad, and we are going [...]

Today’s a day

I eat so much fruit now it’s crazy, but I love it. I think fruit is nature’s fast food, hehe. I’m also diggin’ my salads. God actually provides real good food doesn’t He? I think that I had felt so hopeless about my diet for so long, it’s nice for things to be looking so [...]

Went into the Trenches

I went and stopped by at the store. I don’t know if that will inspire them to hire me lol. I wasn’t dressed for it as it was on the spur of the moment/ on a whim. My hair didn’t look great, and I was wearing my bright lipstick, but then again maybe a relaxed [...]

No Go

Alas, it doesn’t look like I got that job. I guess it wasn’t meant to be aye? I’m disappointed that’s for sure, but I was more than a little scared anyway. I don’t know, perhaps it was right, perhaps it wasn’t, who can say except God? Lord knows I have fantasized about jobs before only [...]

I Sing the Body Happy

The concept of being happy with my body is a foreign one to me. But I’m happy to say that I made my first foray into that unexplored territory today. Not because my body is oh so purdy now, but because ‘it’ll do’ and I’m proud of where I have come; where God has taken [...]

Exciting Prospects

Well I’m on the edge of my seat coz the guy from hubby’s work is trying to get ahold of us about THE JOB. I feel excited about it again, whereas I hadn’t heard anything for quite a while and was just thinking about business starting up things and such. I’m not sure where God [...]

Irk

Well, I’m starting to get irked at myself. Yet another day has just ooooozed by in pretty much useless pursuits, like chatting and watching tv, not that those are worthless, but I mean I WANT to get closer to God! And the day just gets sucked up into meaninglessness most days. Apparently I have a [...]

Positive?

You know, I’ve come to realize that it’s kind of difficult to write about positive things. I’m sitting here these days, and I’m just feeling so good that I have NOTHING to say lol. I’m not sure if that’s because when I ‘wrote’ BEFORE, in my pre-Christian days, I was a totally miserable depressive person, [...]

The Kitchen

I was thinking about a young pastor at my old church this morning while I was standing in the kitchen; I was mostly just thinking of him fondly and wishing I could keep in touch somehow coz he was super nice and super brilliant. Then I got to thinking of the last time I saw [...]

tv or yoga

I’m so healthy. NOT. I’m like smoking cigarettes. my bad. I broke down last night. I will fix it tomorrow I daresay coz it’s making me feel bad. I’m in a great mood aside from that. But I’m having the strange side effect of having nothing to say on my blogs and in the diet [...]

Valentines

I totally didn’t get to celebrate valentine’s day. Hubby phoned from work and said ‘happy valentines day baby’ and that was about the extent of it. But I wasn’t really thinking about it, except that fact that we won’t get to go out for dinner, even belatedly. I would suggest that we buy each other [...]

Bro is Here

Well I’m up in the wee hours of the morning. I had to get up at 5 to take hubby to work so that I could have the car. My older brother is in town for a couple of days and I wanted to go see him and his wife at their hotel downtown this [...]

Ugh

oooh dentist count down 20 minutes. needles stuck in my front lip. bite thingies that make me gag. rubber damm that hurts my teeth being clamped on. or worse, needles stuck in the roof of my mouth. I hate that, it hurts so much. I have a good dentist tho, he rocks. I used to [...]

Just Felt Like Talking

My dentist didn’t end up doing anything, I have to go back in tomorrow and possibly friday too. Then he will do stuff. He just looked me over and decided what to do the other day, so I worried for nothing. Thank you for your prayers butterfly, I will save them for the next appts [...]

Dreams

Tomorrow I have TWO appts. One with my shrink, and another at the dentist. I feel so busy, hehe. I will have to get up super early to get in my shower. I’m not so good at getting up early. Mostly coz I’m not so good at getting to sleep early. Man I dislike the [...]

Kevin

This made me laugh Click Here One time, the LAST time, hubby and I went camping, we moved to a new campsite by a rushing river. And I got up in the morning and hubby went off in search of a store we had passed up the road, and I went to pee in the [...]

Wonderstruck

Well I’ve gone and done it, changed wonderstruck.com Click here to see it I’m pretty happy with it. I think the template I found is cute. As soon as I fix up the ‘linkage’ link I will shoot a thank you to the designer. The linkage link needs credits. Like to blogmoxie, mel, kitty, my [...]

Changing Wonderstruck

I have been working on a new front page for wonderstruck, but everything mel has done is so beautiful, I wish I didn’t have to have a crappy page that I code myself for my front page. The page I have right now for wonderstruck is a template I paid for, but it wasn’t custom. [...]

Photoblog and Horror movies

My photoblog is finally done! Click here for Stoplight You can check it out, there’s only a couple of pictures in it right now, I don’t have it set up; I have to do categories and my links page and such. There’s a picture of me and coco in there Mel from blogmoxie did an [...]

The Brat

My new puppy is starting to relax and be a bit bratty. Like biting and chewing on everything and anything, and being a tad hyperactive. When I was doing yoga she was crawling all over me and chewing on my yoga book, and my hair, and my sweater, etc etc. And right now things aren’t [...]

Addition

We now have a new addition to the family. Time to pick out a name. I find myself lovingly protective of the small dog, and I can see that the dog is already looking to me. I feel rather more like a ‘mom’ than I did with crissy, because crissy was sooo independant emotionally. This [...]

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