I’m watching a tv show on the more spiritual tv channel, and it’s about exorcism. There’s a Catholic priest saying he’s done 65,000, but he also said that it takes many years to free someone from the devil, which i found surprising. That’s not what horror movies lead you to believe. The priest said sometimes it takes 15 years. strange.

I’ve had experiences that I thought were the devil at first, because I was raised Catholic and had that sort of sensibility. Now I don’t think the devil and demons can attack people that way, otherwise probably everybody would be attacked. I’m not sure what was going on in the Bible, what with all the possessed people wandering around.. but it was probably the same thing that goes on now when people think they are possessed.. dissociative identity disorder, schizophrenia, some sort of mental fragmenting where the pieces that break off appear to be not part of you anymore, but still in you. these could easily be called demons, or in fact be taken advantage of by real demons. who knows..

I’m not saying a negative spiritual world doesn’t exist, i just don’t think they have much power over us, except to perhaps lie, like the serpent in the garden. we all know that bad beliefs can lead us to hell in a rail cart, but we also know the truth will set us free.

I love photography, in my own little way. I get a wee rush everytime i push the shutter release, and excitedly look at the LCD screen after to see if the picture has a certain something. The difference between the GRD and the GRD II is not much, but I can’t help wanting that EXTRA certain something that the GRD has. but I’m hesitant to spend the money, because i might be disappointed. tho that’s kind of a losery perspective. i should hope for the best and try. for my certain something.

well i’ve spent the day listening to so many Christian preaching podcasts that i had to stop because i couldn’t take in one poot more information. It’s amazing how I love to immerse myself in God’s Word, but have trouble reading the Bible. The Bible used to scare me so badly! It’s ok, now, but I’m still a little nervous about picking it up, frightened of what i might find. I always think the scary scriptures are talking about ME. It’s really a lack of understanding that keeps me in fear, but I need God to heal the fears Himself, because I can’t help misinterpreting scriptures. aaaah I will read the Bible more someday, God told me to, and I can’t disobey!