I always had these demonic rushes of anger against God, like when I was suffering too much.  I used to feel so horrible when those feelings came up, because I knew they weren’t true, because I looooove God, and Jesus is my Saviour who DOES save me.  It may take a long to get all saved up.  But He saves me and I love Him.  

The other day I let myself SIT in this anger of God, and I realized that it may be true deep inside of me, that I was angry at God for letting me suffer.  It was a terrible thing to sit in the middle of.  It lasted about 3 days, I was giving the feeling to the foot of Jesus’ cross, and letting Him handle it.  I feel soooo much better now that that feeling is gone and I’m free to just love my sweet Jesus Christ.