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I had to go for a job interview yesterday. I was freaking out totally with a huge ‘I CAN’T, I DON’T WANT TO!’.. and I was telling hubby I was praying for God to take that away, and hubby says ‘it doesn’t work like that, get ahold of yerself’.. I said ‘it DOES SO work like that! I’m totally dependent on God!’.. and hubby had to watch God come thru for me and enable me, so he had to admit he was wrong, hehe. So by the time the interview came around I was thinkin’ ‘I can do this, no problem’.. ha! why? Coz of God! I can do all things through Christ Who strengthens me. God even healed me of something that would have prevented me from doing it, like the night before the interview, a gentle healing. I was watching a sermon on sunday by this woman who yells her sermons passionately, and she was saying ‘if what you are dreamin’ ain’t IMPOSSIBLE for you, then you ain’t dreamin’ right’.. I was thinking that was about right, coz I was putting out these job applications by faith! It was totally impossible and dependent on God. But God came through! He is so awesome and takes such good care of me in such a glorious manner! I’m so happy because I know that God will take care of me and enable me. I have felt so unable for so long but we’ll see what God has to say about THAT!

By the way, God was with me thru the LA trip even tho I was a total flibbertyjibbet on camera and will probably end up on the cutting room floor. I almost lost my boarding passes on the way back, but other than that I didn’t do anything too messed up. I had fun and it was so nice to meet my ‘diet’ friends. It was a real nice way to celebrate getting to goal. Even tho I’m quite a bit over goal weight right now hehe my bad.

My God is an awesome God He reigns. I’m so happy to be in His hands. Sometimes I wonder why things take so long, or I get frustrated that faith is a seed that has to grow, or that I have to WALK into the promised land.. sometimes I wish the promised land would just fall at my feet. But I think God gets frustrated right along with ya haha.. He yelled at me once to trust in Him. Like things would be moving on alot faster if I wasn’t such a booger head. aaah well, I think eventually a Christian should be able to leave fear as a thing of the past, and rest in God’s care. How many times did Jesus say ‘fear not!’.. alot o’ times I think. Anyway, I’m off to go and sit in God’s lap for a while.. talk to y’all later.