I just found out the secret of the unpardonable sin, and man am I pissed off. I found out that the only blasphemy is in rejecting God and the works of God of course.. and if you came to God that of course you would be forgiven.. it’s unpardonable if you reject God period. I’ve been terrorized with the unpardonable sin for so long, thinking it was saying bad words to the Holy Spirit, man am I angry at demons! I guess it’s all part and parcel with ‘you shall know the truth and the truth shall make you free’.. The thing about God’s truth is that it’s always beautiful and freeing I think, because God IS love. It just makes you wonder how much crap you are falling for in your head that’s making you miserable.. doesn’t it?

faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things unseen. it’s a substance, that’s like saying it’s the actual thing. it’s the thing God gives you to move you into the power. it’s your half of the power, so it is like the power. it’s agreement with God, God’s promises are yes and amen, and you say yes and amen too. Jesus is the author and finisher and perfector of our faith, it’s not you who live, but Christ who lives in you, so don’t be scared that you have to manufacture it all on your own. It’s the way God works, it’s the way we hook up our ways with God’s power. The just shall live by faith. It’s a total submission of our wills to Him. ‘How shall we work the works of God?’ ..’These are the works of God, that you believe on Him whom He sent’.. fight the good fight of faith! by His stripes you are healed! who can believe this report?? oh who can believe?

Jesus came to give life and life more abundantly. I may have been chasing God too much. I don’t know if that’s possible or not, but maybe we are to put God FIRST and then other things second, not put God first and ONLY.. Does that make sense? I may be making a mistake, I’m not sure though. It says to love the Lord your God with all your heart mind understanding etc, but are you supposed to love Him with all your time? if you know what I mean? are you not supposed to do other things? My husband is mad at me for listening to tapes all the time, and I must confess I’m getting a little tired. So I think I’m doing something wrong. I don’t want to get ‘religious’ or whipped. I know that there is nowhere else to go but to God, and as the disciples said ‘only you have the words of life Master’.. but I’m thinking that only doing that all day and all night might not be the right thing to do. The disciples spent 24/7 with Jesus.. I wonder if Jesus taught them all day and all night.. I wonder if that is the way.. Jesus said His yoke is easy and His burden is light.. I think I’m throttling myself. I’m hungry for the word, but there’s only so much a person can do. I just think I’m doing this wrong, because Jesus is easy and joyful and beautiful. I don’t want to become a pharisee haha..

Do you ever watch people in ‘the world’ trying to be happy or thinking they are happy, with positive affirmations or sitcoms, and get a strangled feeling in your throat, a panicky vision of hell to come or something like that.. I try to think ‘oh God is working on them, they are safe and happy, God will come to save them just like He did me’.. I try to assumed it’s a lie of the devil that these people are lost. Because it’s not God’s will that any should perish. I think there’s a sympathy for people that need God, and there’s that panic that I’m not sure is right, because I think God will save people. Jesus said ‘My yoke is easy and my burden is light’ but that message gets a tad mixed up, and Christianity is not the popular way because of that. Maybe some people get saved near death, maybe some people AFTER death, coz there is that scripture that says the dead will hear His voice and if they listen will be saved. I’m not sure if I’m misinterpretting that or not. But I would like to think I’m not and people have a chance to choose God after death and the veil of lies is lifted off of their minds. Anyway, I don’t like to think of people as lost causes, because I figure God can do His will. The bible does say many are called but few are chosen, but I guess that means that God chooses people who choose Him. but I tell ya, God is merciful, if you take one step toward Him, He takes 10 billion toward you. Anyway, I am choosing to think that God will save people.

I’m so happy. Jesus is easy and beautiful and I seek Him with all my heart. You shall know the truth and the truth shall make you free. Oh what a promise! Who the Son sets free is free indeed. I can’t get enuff. I’m impatient for the word. God has caught me up. It’s God that worketh in me both to will and to do His good pleasure. Imagine, it’s for His pleasure! Like Jesus said He did it for the joy set before Him. Alot of the time the enemy blinds minds and makes the bible seem like a foreboding negative thing.. but God is full of joy and pleasure! It even says in the bible that it pleased God to bruise Jesus.. because He knew that by His stripes we were healed.. I imagine, because He knew that the kingdom of darkness fell.. Oh I pray to understand God and His kingdom! To know the beauty of serving Jesus..

The unpardonable sin must be something like hating the spirit of God. One would be utterly lost I guess in order to do that. The kingdom of darkness is always trying in this area. But God is gentle with us and knows our heart does not hate Him. Tho I think the negativity might grieve the Holy Spirit after a while, because He wants to be loved and not feared in that way that makes for negativity. And the fear of the unpardonable sin might keep us from turning to the Holy Spirit, and we are meant to commune with Him. It’s strange that when Jesus told of the unpardonable sin, the people it was meant for probably didn’t care, and the rest of us live in eternal panic. I once read the bible from cover to cover when I was about 16, just to say that I had, and the only thing that I got out of it was a terror of the unpardonable sin. Because I knew the way that brains worked, the thing you are terrified the most of and all that. Not because you wanted it, or meant it, but because you feared it so. If I had never heard of such a thing of course it would never have been on my mind, because who would ever say anything against God?? or hate God?? The Holy Spirit is nothing but good. But ever since reading about the unpardonable sin, I have lived in terror. I know other people do too.. But know that God knows your heart, and He knows that you don’t hate Him, and even if your mind plays tricks on you, that’s not what God sees..

I think the world needs to be saved. We have our Saviour, He’s done the work. More effective workers are needed. Preachers only preach to other Christians, which is of course needed for the Christian life, so that they can work out their salvation with fear and trembling. But when they go out into the field they are met with animonsity mostly. The message of how beautiful God is is met with anger and resentment. It says in the bible that the god of this world has blinded their minds. We were all in that position once and know that God can save us from it. So we need GOD-effective workers in the field. Teachers that can reveal truth with God’s power behind them, to open the eyes of the understanding in the person hearing. Pray the Lord of the harvest, to send workers.

Psalm 91
HE WHO dwells in the secret place of the Most High shall remain stable and fixed under the shadow of the Almighty [Whose power no foe can withstand].

I was blessed by this verse today while joyce meyer was teaching. She said that we would remain stable and it took me a while to find that, it’s in the amplified version. But I experienced this strength in my body when she said it, and I wondered about it.. So I went searching it out. God was blessing it and confirming the scripture about spending time with Him, dwelling in His secret place. No foe can withstand this.